As human beeings we long for freedom.
We not only want it, we need it.
But what is freedom? And what to do with it if we get it?
This is, for me, a really sincere question.
I have recently made myself free from both work-related and private relationships that I felt were tying me down and interfering with my longing for freedom.
Looking at the the results of my decisions I have to remind myself of that this is what I wanted. This is the freedom I longed for?
But if the longing is more of a yearning to be free from something and not to something...
What to do with the freedom so that it not only becomes time filled with thoughts, questions and activities just so that it wont be empty space?
I have an empty corner in my appartment. I don't really know what to put there, but when nothing is standing there it's just an empty space looking empty so I use it for dumping all kind of things. Laundry, acrobatic gear, the vacuum cleaner... But I don't want to use my "freedom" like an emty corner. Or do I?
If I made my bed with my honestly wanted freedom, why can't I sleep in it?
Is the point that I should try to put all kind of things, questions and activites in my free corner until I find what really fits there?
I found what I want to put in the dumping space, the empty corner in my appartment. It took some time, and maybe that is just what I need to give my new freedom.
Time.
I think it is good to have vaccuum spots in heart, mind och at home. It is like... well after a break-up... there are vaccuums here and there. I do not think vaccuum is to be filled with something. Vaccuum is to be vaccuum. Feel it and why replace? All stages are good. Embrace it, perhaps? Some people think that vaccuum is the place where you can reach God/Goddess within you. Since it is cleanest form.
SvaraRadera